Daily life with a hint of angst

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 00:56:11 GMT

Nine of wands

VIIII the hermit

reverse six of coins

ace of cups

reverse seven of cups

two of coins

ace of coins

with that said anyone care to speculate on my life atm
that said my phones been turned off by my stepdad so i have no easy way to be contacted right now, im me chances are ill get back to you quick as i can

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 00:22:58 GMT

Despair.

Thu, 19 Jul 2007 03:21:25 GMT

So as I assume most of you know, I'm going to be away till late Sunday night.
Now what I would like to do is ask a favor of all you who see this.
I would ask that you post whatever you want to tell me but don't due to social grace, the things you normally do not tell to the person. Tell me what type of person I am in your eyes, the good and bad. Say what you think could help me. Say anything you want to. While I would like for you all to post under your own names, I more then understand if you want to be anonymous so the post is going to be open. I am also setting it so that all comments will be screened, that way you can say if you don't want other to see it.
I Shall be looking forward to reading it all when i get back, regardless of what may be said.

Sun, 27 May 2007 00:22:54 GMT

so yeah im sitting shiva tommarow evening as well, please for my scraps of tattered sanity try and stop by. food or other consumable gifts welcome.
17 warner ct
huntington ny 11743
get your own directions

Thu, 24 May 2007 02:21:29 GMT

tomorrow 2-4 7-9
during the 7-9 is the service
call me for directions when your all close to my house if you want to come

Wed, 23 May 2007 03:10:00 GMT

The world just became a darker place.

open gaming

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 01:50:50 GMT

so heres how it goes. It is now the second day of April, and I now feel the need to warn all of you I didn't get a shot at, that you are fair game for the rest of the month, the only way out is to prank me first. anything done in good fun, nothing to mean, is acceptable. the more ridiculously elaborate the job the better.
at the end of the month scores will be tallied and the best prank will be rewarded.

good hunting all.

bay shore

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 02:23:44 GMT

so yeah I'm moving to bay shore in a few hours.
I am going to be living in a large room in a house, with a roommate who only speaks spanish *sigh*
this is gonna be interesting
on the good side gonna be living near Dylan so this could play out well
if all goes well i wouldn't be home oft enough to make a mess
well that said hectic as all hell day tomorrow but if it works out ill be more then happy as a result.

appartment hunting

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 06:16:38 GMT

so long story to short i need to find a place to live by sunday, so basicaly im fucked.
i have money and am looking at appartments but im trying to stay near the school and im fucked for work of course
school too
man why did this have to happen now
i mean i knew it would soon but why now
couldnt it have waited till the end of the danmed semester when i was expecting it
so yeah thats that, if you know of anything or can help drop a line

fucking rains it pours
not to mention thats the weather

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 00:22:37 GMT

hi. i havent been updated in a while.

this is all you are going to get.

<3 rachel

Tue, 30 May 2006 22:54:28 GMT

despite massive and utter sleep deprivation id have to say that boston was fucking beyond amazing, got to catch up with people i havent seen in ages, meet tons of new people, have shitloads of fun and of course a full batch of chimeras blood utra strength was brought and passed among many people. after i finaly found some chalk even tough the buster wasnt quite done and needs an overhaul for july and conneticon it got quite the attention and tons of laughs at the derogitory cloud remarks.
"im with the spikey haired idiot"
"single parent, please give gil to support my whiny spike haired child"
and finaly cutting straight to the point
"cloud sucks"

but the fun doesnt stop there, my buster might appear appear on dominic deegan, being used to kill mookie. ahh we can hope

heartless, nobodies, and people

Tue, 25 Apr 2006 04:58:51 GMT

after playing kh2 for as long as i have been ive been stewing this over in my mind for a while
in the game there are the heartless, beings so lost in darkness that their very hearts leave there bodies and seek out and destroy the hearts of others, nobodies, bodies with no hearts completely retaining all of the higher functions but lacking the abilities granted by possesion of a heart such as feelings and morality, and then there are your regular people, containing both a heart and a body they live their everyday lives mostly without regard for these facilities they take for granted.
however its not quite that simple. Nobodies wish to be whole so much so that they sometimes act like a normal person, showing fake feelings and going so far as to fool themselves sometimes.

so far nothing you wouldn't have learned from playing a few min of the game. now think about these three groups in terms of the world around you. heartless loose themselves and seek to drag others down with them, there are many different types of people like this in the world, even if your just looking at it from an emotional standpoint. normal people are a rather obvious catagory.
But then we come to Nobodies. a creature of intelect without emotions, seems simple enough, fitts into society as the sociopaths and the like. but on a closer look as people that fool themselves into thinking they feel when they really don't how can you pick one out so easily. if they look and act exactly as one would expect someone to act in a given situation, always matching their responses to whats expected of them, would they even know after long enough? what would it take to remind them of what they truely are, or if theyve never even known it how can they be shown the truth?

so here is the question, what are you?

and another question, which would you want to be?

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 18:40:46 GMT

interesting break all in all. went to dc, hung out with rin, began repairing a rift ive been dealing with for a while, stole form the lawfully apointed government of canada. and finaly i now have a pet gecko. his name is gendo. hes cool. all additionaly angst and drama shall be withheld for now.

who am i?

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 06:49:53 GMT

because everyone else has done it i might as well

--THEATER KID--
[x] Ever been in a play?
[x] Have you ever seen a Broadway show?
[] Seen more than 10 shows?
[x] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?
[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?
[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater
[x] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?
[x] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever?
[ ] Do you like the Sound of Music?
[x] Did you like the Broadway show?
Total X: 6

--REDNECK--
[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?
[ ]Do you drive a four-wheeler?
[ ] Do you ride four-wheeler?
[]Do you like to get dirty?
[ ]Do you like country music?
[ ] Do you have a broken car in your back yard?
[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat?
[x] Do you live on more then 1 acre?
[ ] Do you have more then 4 different animals at your home?
[ ] Do you watch Larry the Cable Guy movies?
Total X: 1

-GOTH--
[x] Do you wear black eyeliner?
[x] Is most of your clothing dark?
[x] Do you think about death often?
[x] Do you want to die?
[x] Are you a social outcast?
[x] Are you pale?
[ ] do you like Hot Topic?
[x] Do you enjoy Tim burton movies?
[x] Are you mean?
Total X: 8

--PUNK--
[ ] Can you skateboard?
[ ] Do you wear Vans, dvs, converse, ect.?
[x] Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?
[x] Have you gotten in trouble with the Cops?
[ ] Do you watch the x-games?
[x] Do you have any piercings?
[ ] Do you like/wear a Mohawk?
[ ] Do you wear Band T-shirts?
[x] Are you a rebel without a cause?
[ ] Have you called someone a poser recently?
Total X: 4

--PREP--
[ ] Do you say the word "like" a lot?
[x] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie&Fitch/AEO/Aero? (
[ ] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?
[ ] Do you laugh a lot when your with your friends/girlfriend or boyfriend?
[ ] Have/do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?
[ ] Do you like pop music?
[ ] Do you have a little dog
[ ] Do you smile & laugh a lot!
[ ] Do you hang out with your friends a lot?
[ ] Do you always carry a purse/wallet?
Total X: 1

--HIPPIE--
[x] Is your hair longish?
[ ] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?
[x] Do you want to save the animals?
[ ] You think war is unnecessary?
[x] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?
[ ] Have you ever participated in a protest?
[x] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?
[ ] Do you play a eukalele or os?
[x] Do/have you ever smoked the "peace pipe"?
Total X: 5

--GANGSTA--
[ ] Do you act ghetto?
[ ] Do you wear do-rags?
[ ] Do you like hip-hop?
[ ] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world?
[ ] Do you believe he's alive?
[ ] Do you like Afros?
[x] Have you ever said Fo Shizzle?
[ ] Do you like to dance?
[1] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?
Total X: 1
in my defense it was for a comedy show

--EMO-
[ ] Do you cry often?
[x] Do you wear hoodies?
[ ] Do you like hard music?
[x] Do people not understand you?
[x] Do you write your own poems?
[x] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?
[x] Have you ever cut yourself
[x] ARE U LONELY?
[ ] Do you like "Ohio is for lovers" by Hawthorne Heights?
[x] Do you think a lot?
Total X: 7

--SURFER--
[ ] Do you surf?
[ ] Do you wear flip flops year-round?
[ ] Is your hair shaggy?
[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?
[x] Do you own any pairs of shorts?
[ ] Are you tan?
[x] Do you want to be at the beach right now?
[x] Do you hate tourists?
[x] Do you love the water?
[ ] Do you own a rash guard?
Total X: 4

--BROHOE--
[ ] Do you own srh?
[x] Do you smoke?
[ ] Do you own a bong?
[x] Have you ever broken the law?
[ ] Do you listen to Kottonmouth Kings or Kingspade?
[ ] Do you wear SoCal?
[ ] Have you ever said DGAF?
[ ] Do you wear bandanas?
[ ] Do you hate Emo's?
[ ] Have you ever had weed with you at school?
Total X: 2

--GEEK--
[ ] Do you wear glasses?
[ ] Do you get good grades?
[x] Do you use an inhaler?
[ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?
[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes?
[x] Are you on the computer often?
[x] Do you ever get picked on?
[x] Do you look forward to going to school?
[ ] Are you shy around the opposite sex?
[x] You play video games?
Total X: 5

so there you have it, as great as these things are for catagorizing yourself... yeah its bullshit.

there is probly a lot of more important issues to adress but oh well
ill leave you with this parting image of my thumb

once tasted always sought

Sat, 25 Feb 2006 05:50:41 GMT

something i learn and always forget
once a blade has tasted your blood it always looks for more
case in point
carving my staff with an exacto, i cut myself, no big deal keep working, five min later cut myself again still no big deal keep working, half and hour later another small cut, half hour....

huge gaping cut in my thumb to the bone bleeding everywhere and i have to go to the hospital after finding my mom passing out convulsing and loosing bladder controll during the convulsions on the floor...

so ambulances are good round my house, not even ten min and i have an ambulance crew a cop and three other emts in the house working on me...

get to the hospital and im glad i brought my book cause im in the waiting room for at least an hour then finaly into the hospitol proper and get looked at half hour later, half hour after that a med tech comes in to stich me up and declares i have cut my tendon and will need a minor operation, hour later after he goes to get in contact with doc for it he says im stiching you up and your getting the tendon taken care of in the morning... so i finaly get home at midnight... *sigh* this sucks

so my staff is going to run way behind schedule and i almost had all the blade work on it done too.
exacto blade going in garbage and handle boiled for awhile.
have the surgery tommarow at 12:30 feel free to call me after three oh 631 486 8793 to talk

ok please call me i like to know that people care, also im feeling lonley here people i miss you all hell the nearest friends are an hour away either south or east. i could realy use the comfort. danm i sound pathetic
oh well

playlist

Thu, 23 Feb 2006 18:24:02 GMT

i swear my computer has a rather mean ai
my playlist since ive woken up

The Flaming Lips- Do you realize?
Armor for Sleep- My Town
Rammstein- Feuer und Wasser
Death Cab for Cutie- All is Full of Love
ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION- Yoru no Mukou
WEEZER- You gave your love to me softly
40 Below Summer- Monday Song
Avenged Sevenfold- Remenissions
Three Days Grace- I hate everything
The Flaming Lips- Feeling yourself disintegrate
Alkaline Trio- All on Black
AVENGED SEVENFOLD- Clairvoyant Disease
Guster- I spy
Avenged Sevenfold- And All Things Will End

does it think i get the point yet?
figure out what its saying and youll see whats up with me like usual

pics

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 18:36:02 GMT

so long eventfull not even over weekend, im happy and ill tell details to those who ask. the short version hung out at southshore mall, and had a great time pics to ensue(yeah im pulling the same thing you do rin youll have to teach me how to do those condensed posts sometime) after the mall, monique dylan krista(floe) and i headed to moes in james car(just met him that day hes most def. cool) after hanging out for a while at moe's and suffering masssive alergy attack's me and krista headed down the street to get medecine and came back with chinese food instead(herbal remedies) we all crashed up in moniques room for the night. then the next day headed to a park where me and dylan walked through the woods and i found this tree that just called to me and i knew i had to have it. there was a creeper vine starting to work on it so it would have died anyway so i didnt feel to bad bout felling it. it barely fit in the car with 4 people and two dogs plus driver on the way back. also in the park was this awsome garden of fallen trees that i so want to camp in even if its not legal. definatley durring the summer if i can convice everyone. next we headed back to my house at which point dylan and moe both left us and me and krista hung out and had pizza, as hard as it is to believe shed never had garlic knots before.here are the pics

krista as we hung out after getting kicked out of the arcade by an uber bitch

dressup in hot topic part one, dylan as a emo kid (he was supposed to wear a pink button down but it "wouldnt fit" he still end up looking good and it was so worth the evil pleasure of it

krista looking amazing even if she didnt think so

same as the last but this time we had to actualy corner her in the dressing room for the pic, i mean she looks amazing doesnt she
moe part one

part two, looking angry cause of the comment dylan made

part three where she pities victorian women
shes got a perfect body type the lucky girl looks good in everything shes put in. dylan has a great girl even if she wears flannel and hes convinced sometimes shes a lesbian.... ok it was a joke you dont have to kill us moe

sean from school looking oh so pretty

arent they such a cute couple, the morning in moes house, dylan snores even if he says he doesnt. both of them are such sound sleepers we were walking around for a while and it took the dog to wake them up

moe and floe
further proof... put the knife down moe

did i forget to mention that me and krista are dating now oh well then.
we are and i couldnt be happier shes amazing

hows that for run on sentences and bad grammar rin, so ha i will not fix it up because i just dont wanna

freaking out

Fri, 10 Feb 2006 17:48:49 GMT

so what would you say is worse, finding out that your manic depressive or that everyone has been right and your so used to depression that you tell everyone your not because to you its your normal state of mind and therefor doesn't seem like depression. I mean first of all nothing sucks more then finding all this out by becoming badly manic for a few days then crashing back down to depression again after it. well that is where i stand now. i really need something to stabilize my life and make me happy again but well in the last few years that happened so often. all of twice and of course those times lasted so long. this fucking sucks, and being able to see just how depressed i am is really the worst part.

stuff

Fri, 27 Jan 2006 22:40:54 GMT

so my birthday is on tuesday, yay(much sarcasm). im bored senseless have no friends around at all, constantly being threatend to be kicked out of my house. hopefully starting school this week, a week after the term started because my transcript got there late, finaly getting a new phone so ill be able to call once i remake my phone book.
on the cool side i found this http://www.estarland.com/AnimeMerchandise.product.24484.html i really want it but have no money nor even when i get my job will be able to due to backowed gifts... hint. well thats about that. missing being upstate and so cant stand living at home

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 06:51:43 GMT

why does it take so very much for a person to see the truth sitting right in front of them. why is it that songs once heard and thought to be understood completely change meanings with experiance and come to define your entire life. why the fuck am i such a fucking idiot. ive spent myself by loosing my heart and head over two people all the while loosing contact with one of the few people who could help me sort it out and even then i still dont treat her well enough when i talk to her. i am on the verge of loosing myself and giving over to loki and even when i tried that i got yelled at over it i realy dont fucking care anymore so why bother i think ill bring him out just for the fun of what he does and what the consequences will be. but life is life i must still live as much as i dont want to

heart + groin = love

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 15:19:34 GMT

short update out of boredum, longer update later simply summing it up

spurnedmessanger: hey wahts up
FireflyDelirium: nm, you?
spurnedmessanger: my heart has decided to kick me in the groin

fake

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 03:08:04 GMT

so here i am
i made it to college and finally finally finally am updating
and while ive been here a month ive met a lot of people some suck some are good

I have a decent roommate, self described and acurately stated, hes an asshole. but hes the cool type that usualy end up being popular in school and i respect him for what he is cause hes nice

ive met a cool friend on my floor. frank, a good guy kinda like me in some ways and interests, but he sadly had to take a whole lot of crap for something that happened at his school but thankfuly not anymore. hes the sort of guy you want to do right by, and get the respect of.

then there is steve. hes the president of our anime club and hes an awsome guy, a more charismatic and social version of my personality, what i hope to be and what i know i might have been had things gone differently back in the day. i get along with him great and in time hope to become even better friends.

there are others two that arent that good, some people who cant trust those they are with and who are completley layered fakes who will act one way and say other things when you arent around, ive learned this through several people and all that but it doesnt matter ill try to continue with their charade its up to them, i just have to not care because im not letting the same shit happen like it did with the fucking two faced bitch who now resides in georgia.

on my floor are a whole bunch of different people of every sort i hope to get to know them and get at least one or two friends more from the mix but who knows

i havent been the best myself abotu things ive done some stuff i shouldnt and may regret in time but for now its a learning experiance and so long as i do the work thats what matters

and finaly in the last weekend ive made realy fast and hopefuly good friends with an uperclassman. shes a good person who knows a whole fucking lot and im probly going to learn my math class from her. shes probly going to be one of the few who actualy reads this and i know im going to be relying on her a lot during the year if shell let me

on to my classes

phsyc isnt to hard but its so danm early and thats my problem with it other then that its easy to concentrate and understand

english, my favorite class my teacher is an ex hippie who tries to focus a lot more on all the things that have gone wrong to make our whole society bear down so hard on the youth and such. how the government has turned to policing rather then understanding and trying to fix things. its a great class and such and its the truth its a lot to think about out there that jsut usualy falls so far under the radar

math, its not the easiest and i can honeslty say i dont get it at all, hoping to get help on this cause i realy have to learn it

chem 101 its easier then fucking highschool level im only taking it for the credits i cant possibly screw this up and thats a good thing

but in spite of all of his its just so much to be up here and see that while there are some people who are above the petty shit id left behind still so many are embedded in it and i fear that ill get draged down and crack
i got my ear peirced and like it but i fear ill loose myself slowly with things like that and one of the things i did to anchor myself in the past i may have to redo and eventhen it may actualy increase the likelyhood of cracking and loosing myself to it instead of keeping it in check like it was ment to, god i so so want to be back home with steph but i know taht it would be worse there because i woulnt grow at all, so the choice is change into something i may not want to be or stagnate and die

what should i do, i just cant stand it anymore, and while i woulnt do anything stupid i so fucking need to shatter all the fucking lenses and find who it realy is behind the masks, and hope that when i do i can face it, truely face it and be able to stand what i see

unexpected results

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 02:21:47 GMT

You are a Seductive Demon. You are the demon that
wispers naughty things into peoples ears... the
more that they hear, the more of you they want.
You are the one that desides to kill or to
satisfy. You love to play with peoples
emotions, and you often like to see people
suffer if they cross you an any way. You also
like to play with someones fetish. You dont try
to love becouse you know what will happen to
you... just keep playing with people.

What Kind of Different Demon are you...? ( Anime-ish pics )
brought to you by Quizilla
who would have thought id get that, not the one i linked toit from im sure, and i answered truthfully wich i rarley do. expecialy strange considering chaos demon wahs a choice, i mean the description of what it is was me about a year ago and ive been changing suttley since then untill last month or two drasticly changed me, steph my love

You are the Angel of Kindness. You are hard to
anger and you are freindly to everyone no
matter what. You are always the first to
apologize and to solve problems. You love
helping poeple and you have a lot of freinds.
Lets face it. Poeple love you!

What Elemental Angel Are You?-Beautiful pics!
brought to you by Quizilla
strange agian but fitting

poems

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 20:37:32 GMT


orchestral music is love
brought to you by the isLove Generator

Yeah, yeah I should update more often but still. for you all today i have a long post, ive decided to put up some of my poems, most of them are not to recent but i work on them all randomly. enjoy and comment on them when you can.

DREAMS

Dreams shattered
Reality lost
Thoughts unbidden
Come to mind
Freezing heat
Burning cold
Life lived
Painfully retold
Heart skijored
Head piked
Feelings vented
Betrayed outright
Words remembered
Pain reminds
Innocence found
Society binds
Worlds untold
Lost in fray
Chaos rules
Sanity flayed
Betrayals pain
Not soon forgot

Too far away

i havent finished this one but the broken off line i wanted to be the last line of the poem i wrote this one when i was screwed over by a friend an i never could get myself to finish it.

FRIEND

Eternity shall pass and you shall see
Just what exaclty you meant to me
For a single moment of sanity lost
Friendship paid the ultimate cost
Trails passed and hardships faced
And now you want it all erased
Thoughts exchanged and feelings past
Who'd have thought it wouldn't last

Another unfinished one on the same topic, who knows maybe ill tell what exectly this all is if one of you asks. also unfinished

LOVE

One cannot help they whims of the heart
Just follow the wind and hope to survive
For to live is to be pained and escape is only death
And that which hurts the most is the only thing that feels right

Created and finished on the fly as advice to a friend who will know who they are.

TIME PASSES

And so time passes and the world moves on
But what about memories?
One's source of love and pain
Are they but fragments?
Scraps to be tossed away.
Simple little things which make us who we are
So as time keeps passing they begin to amass
But what to do when one poisons the rest?
Do we discard the batch and burn away the would?
Or do we try and heal the pain and cure the problem?
And so time passes and life will go on
But more then one hold most memory and if say
One choses differently then how shall things play?
While one remembers and strives for right and the other for amputation
What shall pass between them?
And so time passes and the globe turns anew
So one shall turn and use all in there domain
To keep from healing everlingering pain
For while they skim the suface
Deeper wounds fester and agrivate the problem
And so time passes and night turns to day
So comes the time of confrontation
When all must made be clear
For all involved to plainly see
Sorrows, pains and tears
So on that day when all is told
What shall then become?
Friendship lost
Or forged anew
A future yet untold
And so time passes and shadows turn to light
Then some day in time long to come
Both shall look back on the battles behind
And as they look they shall muse
What could have passed had things not gone that way?
For a future in flux as yet unmade
Left for mortals to decide their fate
What shall be chosen?
Which path shall we take?
To ruin or paradise
What shall we make
That which none yet know
So tiss it not better to bring company on roads long and cold?
Or will things go smoother running alone
For none can be replaced whith others newly found
Old and new runnings together helping brighten the view
And so time passed and the world moved on
Leaving tears and blood to mix with the rain and mud

Another on the first topic. the stronger the emotion the more ther is that can be written on it.

TWISTED START

This world is warped and twisted
Little can be done
So why sweat the big things and battles left unwon
For life is short and fleating at best
Enjoy it now and have your fun
For when the days over what can be done
Take the good and with the bad
The happy and the sad
And remember to live it all with no regretts
Like every day is your last
Actions not taken tend to haunt
And those who didnt tend to flaunt
So remember do what you must
And always go for all or bust

Still dont know what prompted me to write this but i like it a lot. well thats it for now ill add more of my stuff another time but for now thats it. if you comment on them please specify wich your talking about and what about it you liked or disliked, thanks guys just wanted your opinion
forgot one that means more then the rest, interpret if you will, if you get it right who knows

LOKI

The worst of me I have seen drifting in the sky
Torn away from the tree along with my left eye
Traded for the knowledge and the love of life
Sealed away painfully in heated metals eyes
Traped by thinest veil of simple repeating text
To save the world and myself from this dangerous guest

Though still its servent I hold to its counter to keep its will alive
Simple orb of it all gave way to chronos' test
Chaos wich created all
Order in its wake
Brought again by man to further orders sake

Searing flames to engulf us all brought by mistaken pride
Thought that life was going to take a dive
in that fear crafted that which may be my downfall

A child of the past reborn to signal the worlds demise
Chained to stone once agian with poison poured in his eyes
Ragnorok is his fate to bring to us in time

Loki Stormchild

The worst spawn of my mind

hiatus

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 19:51:38 GMT

well the hiatus is over. dont know quite why i stoped posting for so long but im back now. so much has happened form my all hollows' eve party to yale model congress to other darker stuff that will not be brought up and is only for those who already know bout them. life has been continuing on in its way throwing its bumps in occasionaly, and im still working on changing, being a better person and all that.

of late ive found that all those years as an outcast and bookworm have paid off greatly by making me so elloquent and well spoken, wich is a plus in all things, from debating to conversation to complementing to writing and im enjoying it now.
cant htink of anything else to write for now so ill be back again another time

and im so happy ive been going out with steph for over a month now and it just keeps getting better and better, i love her so much and i hope to feel this way for a long long time to come.